I wasn’t going to post today, I just didn’t feel like it but yea I need to kill time at work. I went to bed quite happy last night but woke up terribly tired and then when I weighed myself it got worse. I told myself not to do it but I couldn’t resist, I thought for sure I was going to either read out the same as yesterday or less but not more. My scale said I gained 5lbs last night! How could that be? I worked out 2 times this week, I know I had hot wings last night but I counted my calories & was still good. Could it be muscle? I didn’t think I was working out that hard to build muscle but my legs were a little sore this morning from running last night. I did do more resistance in my running last night and on a incline which would build muscle. Like I said before I don’t mind muscle but it’s messing with my weight which I don’t like. I’m not logging that weigh in because I still don’t believe it, plus I looked skinnier this morning! I actually looked really nice in a sweater I don’t usually look that cute in, so I was like WTF?! I took a diet pill this morning out of remorse too.
Then I get into work and they surprise us with a Bagel Friday. I couldn’t resist & was feeling shitty already so I had an egg bagel with strawberry cream cheese. It was delicious. I have soup for lunch but I think I might try not to eat it. Well see how I feel with this diet pills, I am a little jittery right now & it was giving me stomach cramps a little bit ago.
I feel off today, I don’t know why but I do. I just want to go home & the day just started. I feel kind of fucked up actually. I don’t know if its my anxiety meds mixing with this diet pill or the little bit of weed I smoked before work but I feel really doped, like I took a pain killer even though I didn’t. I’m going to veg tonight, do my korean pore care regiment and sleep.
On a lighter note I finally beat the level I was stuck on on my candy phone game so that made me happy last night.