So that didn’t go as well as I had hoped and that is probably then end of that. I never really thought that I gave the impression of not wanting to hang out with him but I was having a lot of anxiety problems with this relationship. Every time we had plans it took all my effort just to go because of my anxiety. I met this guy online & he was really great, there was no reason for me not to like him but i just didn’t for some reason. I did have fun with him once I was out but leading up to that point was dreadful for me. It got a little better when I started taking anti anxiety meds but they just help me in general, they don’t help the anxiety when it is extreme in certain situations like meeting new people & say flying.
After thinking about this for a good portion of the night friday I did realize that I have never dated someone I didn’t know somehow already. Either a friend, friend of a friend, or co-worker but never a stranger. I am notorious for dating my old boyfriends best friends after we break up because I am friends with them & comfortable with them. It’s not something I do intentionally, it’s just something that seems to happen. Well I guess at least I know I won’t be finding love online, it will have to be with someone I am acquainted with somehow, which lessons my chances of finding someone but who knows. My co-workers best friend was hitting on me this weekend so maybe there could be something there.