I made it through the day but all I keep thinking about is binging. I’m not even hungry just sad I guess. I did go try on a few dresses after work which wasn’t a good idea since I looked like a fat hog. It doesn’t really surprise me since this is what happens every time I try clothes on. I will have to wait until the day of the xmas party I think so I am as small as possible. It’s only 2 weeks away though so I doubt it will make much difference. I can tell the weight I have lost hasn’t come from my fat gut like I want, it will probably come off my butt and boobs which are the last 2 places I need it coming off. I seriously need to try harder to get to the gym, I just never have the time after work. I know I am lying to myself when I say that because I could make the time, I could watch an hour less of TV and go to the gym but my anxiety talks me out of it.
Burbank smelled like hotdogs tonight, it was gross and good at the same time. I am sick.